When I was in my twenties, I committed to a few years of celibacy. After a lifetime of having pushed myself in that way, it feels so good to take the pressure off and align with the present moment where I can feel my Inner Authority and have “nothing to prove”. The not-self need to prove something starts from this internal place of overcompensation. I assume I will have the energy so I will put pressure on myself to make this work for a mentally derived period of time. Commitment is saying, I will do this for sometime between now and forever. With an open Heart/Ego Center, our not self mind can convince us that we need to commit to something. If there is nothing “in it” for the defined Ego, there is no key to turn on the will power motor.
This takes will power and why it requires that there has to be something “in it” for the defined Ego to make that commitment. The Heart Center is a motor which, on the other hand, is more about having the energy to commit to something over time, or not. And the Splenic awareness can only make itself known when something in the moment is requiring us to pay attention. The Sacral motor can only respond in the moment.
The deeper I go into my experiment, I feel “planning impaired”. Maybe you have a similar design with Sacral and/or Splenic definition. So much of my design mechanics are about being in the moment. I am a Manifesting Generator (Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix) with the Channel of Charisma (34-20), which, we say, is a design where thoughts must become deeds or mechanically speaking, where we must manifest our vital energy in the moment according to whatever we respond or, in the not-self, react to. In my design, I have Sacral Authority and am also Splenic in my definition.